Hello and welcome to the:
Let me explain.
Today is my 30th Birthday!
A day I have been dreading for a long time but... well I'm over that. Kinda!
The thing is that my 30th year was quite possibly the worst year of my life. Actually, in truth lots of good, positive things happened in my 30th year. I met lots of great people who have become good friends. My writing career has started to move forward (baby steps). A Poetry Anthology that I co-edited was published (you can buy a copy here), I wrote a one man play and I have made progress in my work teaching creative writing and drama to primary school children. I became a lifeguard (negative) in the hope of training as a swimming teacher (positive) and I have been working very hard towards making my dream of one day swimming the English Channel a reality (you can read more about this on my blog A CALM Crossing.
However, a long term relationship broke down and coupled with desperation about the state of my life and career as I approached the big 3 0 I went through a bit of a bad time. During the summer I tumbled into a pit of despair which I struggled to get out of for 3-4months. A period where I didn't work and all I wanted to do was sleep. Being frank and completely honest about it: at some point I was feeling suicidal. I never really thought about ending my life exactly but for what felt like a long time, I wished that I didn't exist. But that's in the past now and this project is about the future.
I am determined to make my 31st year on this little planet of ours the best ever! I have several resolutions to try and make that happen. 1. smile more. 2. do more good deeds. 3. spend as much time as I can with the people I care about. 4. meet as many new people as possible. 5. have as many new experiences as possible!
This blog is about the 5th resolution.
To have as many experiences as possible. Try as many new things as I can. & two things this must absolutely include are travelling outside of Europe for the first time and swimming the English Channel. But at this stage everything else is completely left open for thought, suggestion and debate. If you have any ideas let me know. I'm trying to keep my mind as open as possible. I want to have as many fun experiences as I possibly can in one year (on an incredibly small budget). So if there is anyway that you can help me out or you have a weird hobby or you know how to cook something you know it's unlikely that I've ever eaten before because it's a strange Khazakstan delicacy, then get in touch!
Suggestions can be as insane as you want. I don't promise that I'll do them but I certainly want to do things that will scare me (and make me feel alive). Here's the deal. I have a problem with heights, I'm not cool with public nudity and I don't eat cheese or drink alcohol. I think I'm pretty game for everything else and maybe I can challenge myself with some of those things too. Rock climbing maybe? Who knows?
So here we are. At the very beginning of what will hopefully be a very fun year for me and for you too (by following my adventures here and also by getting involved! Why not come and do something with me that you have always wanted to but as yet have never managed to or maybe share your wacky hobby with me). As well as blogging, there will also be videos and hopefully a show which I hope to take up to the Edinburgh Festival in August 2014 (which would be another first).
For people who don't know me I'm a slightly awkward writer who no longer drinks, has never smoked and doesn't have any tattoos (I think that's one of the few things I won't be doing) so having done a good job of making myself sound quite boring, you might be able to see that a lot of the things I might potentially end up doing will be a bit of a challenge for me. So let's see how I get on. Hopefully I will take it all in my stride.
Ps. There will also be a weekend (probably around April 1st) when I will do (almost) anything for money with proceeds going towards me swimming the English Channel - which I will then be doing for the wonderful suicide prevention charity: C.A.L.M.